I am a “someday mom” living in Canada.  I am in my late 30’s.  My husband and I are waiting to adopt an infant domestically through a public agency.  As wonderful as it feels to know we are in a cue for our own child, I have to face the reality: our wait could be a long one.  In the meantime, I have a lot to say to our “someday baby” and would like to record it now, so that I don’t forget what it feels like to be in this place.  Limbo.

Updated April 6, 2010: I can’t bring myself to erase the words above because I’ve looked at them for so long.  And yet here we are – new parents as of March 15th.  Our baby girl is a miracle – we truly weren’t sure if she would ever arrive, although I never gave up hope.  Now we begin a new journey as adoptive parents with an open arrangement with our baby’s birth mother.  It’s new, scary and thrilling all at the same time.

As for who we are…I’m 39, DH is 50 – yep, it’s true.  There was a time when our ages were my worst fear…now, they mean nothing.  We have more energy and zest for life than we’ve ever had.  Life, in fact, has never been better.

To anyone else out there waiting, I beg you….DON’T EVER stop wishing, believing, dreaming, hoping, praying and hurting for your family.  If we can get there, anyone can!